Staying Optimistic

I am a man of six feet tall .
Just looking for some answers
In the world that answers none of them at all,
I'll say Hye but not replied
To the letters that you write
because i found some peace in mind
Listen to these words
That I have lived by my whole life
Cause im only as tall , as my heart will let me be
And im only as small, as the world would make me seem
But when it go and gets rough ,
And I feel like i may fall .

I'll look on the bright side ,
Im roughly six feet tall :)

Happy Birthday Mirin Oi

Mirin ! Kau da 17 doh ! You can drive a car dude :P

Anyway , whats a birthday without a ceremony oh tepung and telur kan guys ?
Anyway , for this birthday i got three rounds of ceremony . In the same day .

THE FIRST .

Which is the most brutal of em all .
Keluar sekolah je kena serbu ngn a mob of angry students wanting to take revenge .
Hahaha .

Sadly , this one tade gambar cause nobody bawak phone g skola today .
hahaha .

THE SECOND .

Took place in selayang mall .
Hang ngn my friends .
The say the got a suprise for me .
So keluar je mall they spray me with the foam thing .
You know the one yang putih putih tu ?
Then masing masing spray kat muka masing masing just to take this particular picture .





After all of it settles i went to tution class with raja .
He pick me up and we went to class.
When i got in . Teha panggil panggil .
Pastu she gave me an envelope .
Bukak bukak sakit hati cause this is what i found




Turns out that the gift was from both Teha And Pka .
Guys , walaupun menyakitkan hati reading those hurtful comment
Somehow rasa cam terharu .
Thanks guys :)

Just when i thought the nightmare is over ,
It strikes again >.<' THE LAST

They were setting Ayu up and
Akmal set me up and kena skali join the family .
Hahaha. Thnks guys . Seriously :P

Credits ?
The list goes on who wishes me first
(orang yg penting je in this list)

1) Mama mama mama
2) Fahirah
3) My Bro , OG
4) My Teha sweety
5) Akmal my sahabat
6) Ejoy my badut
7) Pka aka teenage mum
9) Navien my partner in crime
8) Rooban Panther
9) Himmat my fav debater
10) Vinoth papan
11) Logai ! my beatbox
12) Suhillen
13) Faiz Cartoon
14) Acap aiman
15) Chin Yeah my gayboy
16) Daletha
17) Calvin
18) Puan Chaeng Chemistry Teacher
19) Pyka apple scndle scndle
20) Ishvinder my radar in class
21) Mr Lim Meng discipline teacher .
22) Syami Hidung Steam
23) Yo my facial expert
24) Nazif ! my sex maniac
25) Syahir my devil partner
26) Shah parutt
27) Raja
28) Joshua

banyak kot . entah lar . anyway thnks for everything guys .
Best Birthday so far :)

Arghhhh

So I say goodbye to a town that has ears and eyes
I can hear you whispering as I walk by
Familiar faces smiling back at me and I knew
This would make them change

The only thing that's going to bother me
Is that you'll all call yourselves my friends

Why can't you look me in the eyes one last time?

The writings on the wall, you've read that I'll be gone, but if you call my name
Just know that I'll come running, for one more night to spare with you
This is where I'm meant to be, please don't leave me

I’ve read these stories a thousand times, and now I’ll rewrite them all
You’re meddling in an anger you can’t control
She means the world to me, so hold your serpent tongue
Is a whores lies worth dying for? I'll just take my time

I walked into your house this morning
I brought the gun from our end table
Your blood was strewn across the walls
They'll find you on your bathroom floor

But should I write it all off?

You should have killed me when you had the chance

The Heat Gone Cold

Yesterday was a rough day . Was thinking about her .
Anyway , woke up late as usual around 7 i think ?
Bangun mandi breakfast and all masuk kete ikat tie . ikat kasut .
(Perlu ke bagitau doh ?)

Soo , reach school at 725 i think ?
Like every other morning i will go to syami's class to gossip gossip .
haha . Then i realise that Syami and Syahir was at the basketball court.
I also realise that Nazif was all alone in the class .
So , without wasting time aku pun pegi la kat anak mail tuu .
Jumpa Syami tanye la dia ok ke tak bla bla bla .

Pastu the bell rang and i grabbed syami and ask
'Ponteng satu masa ngn aku nanti ? Aku ada benda nak story bhai'

Syami pun membalas .
'Tak janji'

Okay so i go to class . It was history i think .
Puan Ratna was pissed because i came late to class .
Sorry cikgu !

After history was PJK . We had our 'Sukantara'
Aku tak lari pun . Lepak ngn vinoth and prashant .
Vinoth yang si POYO tu pegi lawan lawan pumping ngn Cina .
Belagak la kau chaa . Tauu la fit :P

So PJK abes and straight away to Chemistry lab .
Masuk lab pun kena marah . But Vinoth took the worst punch .
Idk why teacher is so upset with him . Padahal ramai kot yang came late.
When back upstairs lalu kelas Syami . Tegur la Syami and Nazif.

Mirin: Weh , kau pehal ?
Nazif: *Buat muka
Mirin: Napa ngn kau bhai ? ok tak ?
Nazif: Da break doh .
Mirin: *alamak sedih nye* Chill ah bro . rehat nnti story kat aku . kena masuk kelas.
Nazif: Okay *buat muka takde semangat hidup dia*

Lepas blaja addmaths it was recess time .
Caught up with nazif and ask him wht really happen .
Dia pun cita atas bawah and kami dgr je la .
Kesian gila kot kawan aku kena camni .

See , thts the thing . Even though my head is a mess and even when im down .
After finding out that a person who is close to is hurt in any way .
I'll forget about my problem and terus focus kat orang tu .

Chill bro , you still got us by ur back .
We're not going anywhere ait ?
Petang ni kami belanja karaoke . chill bro . Thing will turn up i promise.

Heres to a good run Nazif And Haelie :)

When Your Friends Looks A Lot Like Shit

Okay geng . today aku nak cerita pasal kawan .

ADA DUA .

KAWAN DAN SAHABAT

Beza kawan ngan sahabat senang je.
Kawan , kalau ajak lepak . Pura nak lepak tapi sebenarnya taknak tgok muka kau .
Sahabat , kalau ajak lepak akan cuba sedaya upaya keluar rumah just to see you

Dua , kawan kalau jumpa je mesti tanye soalan macam yang berikut,
Weh , kau g mana ni ?
Oi , dari mana doh .
Weh pe cer kau ?

Kalau sahabat pulak .
Weh , apa jadi semalam ?
Bila kau nak buat bnda tu doh ?
You see , the thing about sahabat is diorang tau update kau .
Diorang amek berat pasal apa kau buat .

Kalau aku la en , senang je .
Kawan tu ajak lepak setakat nak isap rokok.
Sahabat tu ajak lepak sebab u love their company .

Ada la this one group of boys yang dulu aku igt kawan la en .
Masalahnye , time tu aku muda lagi . tak kenal dunia lagi la orang kata .
Tahun lepas aku cam lost contact gak la ngn diorang ni .
Bukan apa doh , diorang ni KEAGAKAN REMPIT .
Pegi mana mana moto . sikit kena ada moto .
Tade moto takleh nak join diorang ni .
So , aku pun tade la moto around that time .
Aku tak lepak la sgt ngn diorang sebab tempat yg diorang lepak suma jauh jauh .
Diorang pun start la cakap aku sombong la tu la ni la .

Taun ni apa mimpi entah aku , aku boleh lak bantai lepak ngn diorang.
But the thing is , diorang ni mintak tolong sikit ada je bagi alasan .
Taknak tolong tu cakap la en ? aku paham .
Kalau mintak tolong amek taknak boleh la terima .
Ini , tanye lepak mana pun tak nak bagi tau .

Ya Allah budak2 ni . Tape la , aku sedar kan sapa aku ni ?
Aku teruk , Aku jahat and aku la semua en ?

Tape la guys . cam ni je la . Kalau tak nampak da muka aku ,
jangan la pandai pandai cari aku cakap aku suma tu ok ?
da chauuuuuuu

Lombong

You call it Lombong i call it Heaven.
Haha .

Guys, what happen ?

This used to be the place where we gather before we hang.
This used to be the place where we used to smoke
This used to be the place where we played songs and sing a along
This used to be the place where we celebrates people's birtfdays.
This used to be the place where we told others about each others problems
For god sake, this used to be the place where each and every one of us shed our tears.

But now , it means nothing anymore to u guys en ?
Pity the place . You can move on but it can .

Thnks for the memories Lombong :)
You mean a lot to me .

Navien Hellfire

Oh Navien , nobody knows how much u mean to me .

Ohh forgot , to all of you that dont know him
Well he's my classmate and a he's one hell of a friend .

I ask for advice,guidance and and study help and a whole lot more from this fella.
From girls to study , u name it :)

Me, Navien , Chin Yeah and Suhillen calls ourself 'The Observer'
We observe the people in our class and we name everyone.

For an example ,
Faiz,Adelyn and Xiang Kai are called the MOAN
MOAN stands for Mother Of All Nerds.

hahaha sorry Faiz ! :P

In 4 Murni , there are the Sluts , The Aliens , The Posers , The Cnn crew and not to mention
The drunken monkey boy which is Vinoth .
We also have The Morning Show, The Radar and the worst of them all 'Anjing Lim Meng'
hahahaha

Navien tries really hard to made me stop smoking .
He knows my updates everyday .
Everyday , he would ask the same fucking question.

'How many sticks yesterday?'

And weird but its true , i'll be sincere to him and i'll tell him the truth .
He sets the limit .
For an example , this week I can only smoke 5 sticks per day .
In 3 weeks I can only smoke 4 .

If i broke the law, he'll punish me with his mental torture .
Trust me guys , you dont want that . He'll be scratching my arm with a ruler .
Stare you for a really really really really long time .
Telling you that you're stupid for like a thousand time .
And says things like , 'Your son will have cancer'
'Its all your fault, you cant do anything about it. You want that bastard ?'

Btw Navien, I told u that is lame . But the truth is , its like a needle to your heart .
hahahaha

This year I still have you by my side .
From Murni , Lets conquer Makmur like we did back when we were in Murni .
Should be a piece of cake right ? :)

But sadly , this year we lost our Chin Yeah in the battle .
He stayed in Murni and he's all alone . Poor the fella .

Anyway , back to Navien .
To the world you're just one person . But to me , you're the world man .
How can i survive school hours without you're company .
I dont think i can make it a week .

What do i do without u dude ?
Love u man , hope we stay friends till we have grand kids and we'll be the naughty grandpa
you know , the one where nobody would trust us with their daughters .
hahahaha . Just kidding btw :)

Baby Its Only Life

Picking Myself Up .

The thing i hate the most .
Well mirin , pandai jatuh kan hati pandai naik la ye . haha

Letting go .

Im afraid of letting go .
The taught of them being with some one else is simply devastating!

Rejection .

Get that a lot .
Anyway , what a life without a big fall in the beginning right ?

Closure .

Why dont we end this lie .
I cant pretend that i need a friend to find my broken mind before it fell off to pieces again and again.

Apology .

Im sorry .

Goodnight everybody :)

Headache Installation

Headache.
Headache.
Headache!

Look at this doggy

Argh , i fell much better now . hahaha
Look at the cute doggy . Anyway , tade motif pun taruk gambar dia act .
You guys do knows how the world works right ??

You either think positive or the opposite .
If you see the good things in life and that will make you dumb.
Im so sorry to say this , but i think its kinda true.

Brilliant civics are mostly born in a bad surroundings .
A friend of mine once told me that . I found her brilliant .
Well , look at how she looks at things .

People refuse to believe that they can't be smart and a have positive attitude.
I refuse to think that those people are smart in the first place.
Call me snobbish , but you're the one who keep on evading life .
You like to live in your world and ignores others.

Im not simply bragging but i know things.
Sometimes , things that i dont or shall i say refuse to know .
And i should also add , I dislikes to remain my attitude without changing them .
That makes my life a little bit better for once .
Changes is a good thing. It doesn't matter if the changes are worst than before.
It is still things that doesn't stick to your boring life.
Dont be scared at them . Be them . Trust me , it works :)

Sorry , i'll see you on the other side then .
The side where options is a think to laugh at.

Goodnight everybody and a happy new year while you are at it :)

It Hurts

It really does