I Lost A Friend

To those who haven't read about Shahmir .
Here are a link to my previous post when i was still at school.

http://fyiyouareugly.blogspot.com/2010/06/come-back-home.html

Shahmir's death was so sudden and I never thought he would go this soon .
You see , the hard thing about Shahmir's death was all of us knew this day would come.
He was told to be fighting stage IV bone cancer's for the past 3 years .

It all started when Aizat call me and told me about Shahmir's death was i was in campus .
Weird thing was when i saw my phone was ringing and it says 'Aizat Akhir' is calling .
I kinda knew . That my friend was no longer breathing .

So all of us came home and attend his funeral .
The look on his family's face was horrifying as it is .
These are the people who knew me when i was a little kid till today .
It is not much that we can do except to pray for his well being in the other realm .

All of us shed our tears and some cant took the pain of his leaving .
Vinoth of all people was moaning to me how he had wrong Shahmir and how he would gave anything just to ask for Shahmir's forgiveness .
It ain't easy saying goodbye to a friend . Trust me peeps , it stinks .
To be thinking about all of the things i wanted to say to him .
All the promises that i didnt kept .

I promise him to take him skating at sunway pyramid when he's all well and he never got the chance .
God must have love the boy is what they say and indeed he was loved .

The last thing that i was able to say to him a week before he passed away .

'Shahmir , aku kena balik cyber da ni . Aku nak kau jaga diri kau elok elok Mir . Jgn lupa kitorang semua kat sini sayang kau Mir'

It was as if i knew that was going to be the last thing i could say to him .
I grab his hand for a while and let it go . Then he offered me his hand for more affection .
I will never forget that last moment i had with him . Now all of those are just memories .

Now i would like to dedicate this post to him . And if you guys could pray for him .

There are thousands of words that i want to say to him but if i was given the chance i would like to say .

'Dont be afraid , be brave to find yourself. Dont feel the pain , live through it . Dont regret , you have nothing to feel sorry for yourself . Dont hold it in , let it go and forgive me my friend for not being there . Forgive me for my wrongs to you . Forgive me the promises I didnt kept . Forgive me you weren't given the chance to live like i did . You are strong and i hope to learn from you . Goodbye Mir . This is not the end of us . We will meet again and this is a promise im going to keep okay bro ? I love you . We all love you . Dont you ever not even for a second forget that . Goodbye'



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