You'll Be The Death Of Me

I feel like im loosing a little bit of myself day by day .
I lost it . i cant sleep at night . wondering and wondering what the fuck is going on with this head .
I've given everything but its clearly not enough for u.

A best friend , Ticks of time , An old crush , Sanity of my mind .
EVERYTHING .

What do i get out of all this ? nothinggg.
Even a blind dumb-fuck could see that you're killing my inside .
Hidup memang tak adil . Itu apa yang u suka cakap .
Its clearly not fair when you're not being sane with urself .
Sudah sudah la tu doh . Cukup ahh aku takleh terima da doh .

Sapa je aku ni en ? Kalau kau couple ngn aku pun kau segan nak mengaku kan ?
I knew it all along . But did I ever say a word against it ? NO .
I'll just play along because i hope that all the patients would worth a while.
When you have nothing not even yourself its clearly tht you are stupid Mirin.

Hey , its totally cool for me if you wanna keep on lying to yourself.
Do whatever you want . Its your life kan ?
Im clearly not a part of your life anymore.
Thats what you want right ? Or its not?
Takes a million year for you too answer that . I bet on that.
I'll be waiting . I dont mind .
But dont think im your puppet for you to push around .
My patients can take me this far . And im not so sure if it would go any further.

Before The Worst

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day that you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain

So explain to me, how it came to this
Let's take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
With vodkas and coke, I was guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before too late
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

There was a time that we'd stay up all night
Best friends, yeah, talking til the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to lose but so much to gain

Are you hearing me? Cuz I don't wanna miss
That you would drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton street, on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life

We were thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before too late
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

Dear RETARD

Please stop being a retard ? Please ?
Dude , im begging you man please..
Pretty please ?

Okay , its clearly not working.
You're still a bloody retard .

Weh lancau , kalau kau anggap kau tu kawan aku la en.
Okay takpayah la susah sgt kau nak paham dgn that thick head of yours.
If you even take me as your friend once .
Kalau ada benda tak puas hati , say it to my fat face will yeah ?
Babitkan diri aku sorang . tak payah nak babit kan orang lain tau .

Dude , hal kecik laaa . Come on la .
Kalau taknak kawan ngn aku tu okay la nak buat cam mne en .
Tapi kau penah tak terpikir yang orang naik nyirap tgok muka kau tu?

Kau tunjuk EMOSI kau sini sana .
Kau takpenah terpikir ke yg orang pun mampu marah ngn kau ?

Kau kutuk kutuk aku belakang ngn kwan aku sendiri pun .
Kau penah terpikir tak yang kwn aku sendiri tu pun kutuk kau gak.

Kau BODOH la doh . Serious la .
Dgn perangai CHILDISH kau yang tak bertempat tu lagi .
Apa yang kau cuba buktikan ?
That you're the best among the human race?
Weh takde manusia perfect la dalam dunia ni babi oi.
Semua orang penah buat mistake. Whether its forgiven or not je.
Kalau kau rasa kau perfect sgt kau pegi gali diri tinggal dalam gua .
Serious doh memang tempat tu sesuai for your god damn ego.
*Tiru ayat kwn aku yg kutuk kau sendiri*

Manusia boleh berubah in a split second tau tak ?
Apa hak kau nak benci orang yg penah buat silap ?

What a fucking CRYBABY .
Of all the people . Its you we're talking about here.
I feel sorry for you man for being a retard that you are.

Aku bukan nak cakap aku ni PERFECT mcm kau .
Atleast aku takde bawak bawak mulut .
Orang dengki kan ? Camtu la . Mana boleh nak tgok orang lain happy.
Aku admire la kau doh . Seriously man . You're so messed up.
Ever think about that bitch ? Dont think that the world evolves around you retard.
Its not . You're just one of us . No diff from the other.

Get a freaking grip of yourself.
Cry to your mama if you have to.
I dont give a damn . Just make sure that EGO of yours is gone.
Then we'll fucking talk .

TOOOODDDLLLEEEESS :)

Does it ?

Kills you to just keep on smiling?
It does for me

Sewers That Is Full With Flowers

Ada sebab title tu tau . jgn igt aku tulis sebarangan . HAHA

Ookayy , my day . Today is 17th March and I woke rasa lapar gila nak mampus.
Mybe perut masuk angin kot . Entah la .
So tunggu la Mama bangun then terus ajak mama pegi breakfast kat Cik Pura's
We had Nasi Lemak . After the breakfast perut rasa lega sikit la.
Then aku balik untuk sambung mimpi . zzzzzzz ..

It was 11 o'clock and got a call from Syami .

Syami ; Weh , aku ontheway ke Selayang mall da ni .
Mirin ; *dalam hati mencarut terlupa lak plan kluar kl dgn kwn kwn today* Oh ok jap jap

Tunggu Nazhif datang rumah sebab nak gerak sekali .
Nazhif sampai and off we go to Selayang Mall .
Sampai Selayang Mall , jumpa syami kat skate park .
Call Mira sebab nak tau dia keluar ke tak .

Mirin ; You jadi keluar tak arini ?
Mira ; I da ada kat bb da ni you
Mirin ; Oh you dgn sapa je ?
Mira ; I sorang je ni . Kakak i hantar tadi .
Mirin ; Asal gerak sorang ? mane yg lain ?
Mira ; You punya pasal la ni . Yang lain tadee .
Mirin ; Ok tunggu jap nnti i da sampai i call .

Tahan cab terus pegi Pavillion . It was 12 o'clock i think .
Dari Pavi kami ke BB sebab Syami nak beli baju and nazif nak beli cab .
Jumpa Fazran (pakistan) kat sana . Lama da tak jumpa ran oh . rindu lak . HAHA
Then i call Mira , Mira cakap dia sorang . i pun pegi la nak teman dia .

Jumpa Mira kat entrance pavi .
Oh btw , you look beautiful sayang .
Taknak puji kau face to face nnti macam macam pulak kluar dari mulut kau .
Agak lama la tak jumpa Mira . Last time was tragedy AUS . hahahah
Btw , jalan jalan la satu pavi ngn Mira sambil tunggu movie dia pukul 2 .
I da cakap Alice in Wonderland bosan . you nak jugak ngn movie tu . PEGI LA .

Oh then jalan jalan duduk sini sana .
Pastu hantar dia kat wayang . ontheway ke wayang jumpa Amil ngn Taca dia .
HAHAHA Kantoii :P

So off Mira went dgn wayang dia .
Then call la Syami tanye dia kat mana . Kebetulan syami kat pavi .
Memang cun ah . aku da la letih nak berjalan .
Syami suh jumpa kat entrance so the entrance i will go .

Ontheway terserempak ngn yo and hani . depa memegang tangan . HAHA
So aku tarik hani and tanye la .
Mirin ; Kau da couple ngn Yo belum ?
Hani ; *Angguk*
Mirin ; *Gelak excited gila* mcm mana dia propose kat kau ? Romantic tak ?
Hani ; Tak berapa la . *Dia pulak gelak tak tentu arah*
Mirin ; Cita la dohh .
Hani ; Bla bla bla *takkan nak cerita ? personal kot*

Anyway , congrats kepada dua baboon kawan aku ni .
Sumpah suka tgok kwn kwn happy . HAHA
Semoga lama eh ngn Hani yo oi ? jgn curang curang da . HEEEE

Lepas Yo ngn Hani belah jumpa Syami lak .
Tetiba rasa lapar gila nak mati mcm pagi tadi tuh mendatang balik .
Mirin ; Weh , gerak NZ jum ? Lapar gila ni
Syami ; Jom jom, aku pun lapar gila ni .

So kami ke NZ makan nasi ayam .
Lepas makan aku rasa loya gila nak muntah muntah .
Yang si Fazran pulak tak abes abes ngn ceramah bermutu tinggi dia uh .
Minum susu la . teh halia ginseng la. tumbuk perut la . merepek je oh pakistan dia . HAHA
So memang tak sedap gila badan . Dgn sakit perut pastu rasa loya lak .
Perrghh , deadly combination bhaii . HAHA .

Carry on , diorang ajak shisha so kami ke rooftop sebab terasa nak jadi cam dak hot jap .HAHA
Syami ngn Nazif la start membebel .
Syami ; Mirin , mana Mira ? aku nak jumpa dia gak
Nazhif ; A'ah Mirin . ajak la lepak sekali
Mirin ; Si dia tgh tgok wayang la . Biar la dia .
Syami ; Ajak dia lepak sekali lepas wayang .

So aku pun text la Mira bgtau yg kawan kawan aku ni nak jumpa Mira Focklock tu . haha
Mira said lepas wayang dia text
So dekat rooftop memang tade mood doh . Sumpah pedih gila perut aku .
Why god why ?? Of all the days asal arini ??

Haihh , da order suma Mira text dia da abes wayang da .
So aku amek la dia kat Pavi . haihh letih betul banyak gila berjalan .
Sambil ku berjalan terserempak ngn si Atiqa FRADO . hahah
Mirin ; Eh frado lagi .
Frado ; Bro !
Mirin ; Pegi mana ni ?
Frado ; Nak makan g KFC .
Mirin ; Oh samaa la . jum jalan sekali *ayat abes sakai je*

Sampai kfc pickup Mira .
Chauu g Rooftop . ontheway rooftop tu terjadi la kes lintang jalan
Mira ni apa sindrom dia aku taktau la . Mental dillusional apa entah taktau la en ,
Mirin ; Ok jum .
Mira ; Eh taknak ! *Tarik baju aku*
Mirin ; *second time* haaa okay jum
Mira ; MIRIN !
Mirin ; Kau apehal aku tampar karang ?
Mira ; Buat muka comel yang tak seberapa itu . haha

Akhirnya lintas gak jalan selepas terlepas peluang nak lintas dalam lima kali kot .
Smpai je rooftop . Someone was missing which is Nazhif .
And tambah lak empat ekor manusia kat table . Apit , Haziq , Qayum and Pedon .
And the best part apa tau . tade tempat duduk .
Aku da nak mencarut da . punya la panas time tu boleh lak aku bantai berdiri kat situ .
Last last , Mira cakap pegi Pavi . Kononnya tak merajuk la en ? HAHA

Lepak lepak rooftop Fazran nak balik so aku ngn Syami hantar dia sampai ke TS .
Lepas tu kami ke Low Yaat nak pegi kedai Apple . Nazhif join kitorang kat Low Yaat kami ke kitaro nak lepak mnum .

Lepak lepak tiba lah kehadiran dua budak hot AMIGOS . Jan dan Aiman .
Jan ajak main snooker . dia punya belagak .
Jan ; Weh syami jum la lawan kalah bayar . Kau geng ngn Mirin aku sorang.
Mirin ; Woah , angkuh benor kau ?
Jan ; Alaa main snooker ngn aku sekejap je dua ringgit da abes main da .

Mirin ngn Syami paham paham je perangai . Memang kami pantang dicabar . haha
In the end . We wont 20-lebih kot. Jan kena bayar . HAHA
Padan muka kau lain kali takpayah belagak tak tentu pasal .HAHA

Lepas snooker pegi TS jap nak jumpa my friend Fieza Zahari . dapat jumpa for a while je .
Because that time kena balik cepat sebab Syahir nak bwak kete amek kitorang pukul 8 .
So naik monorail sampai Kl Sentral then Ktm sampai kepong .
Naik cab sampai Selayang mall . Smpai selayang mall 930 kot tak silap .
Syahir amek kitorang . Ayu ada ngn Syahir time tu .
Haih dua ekor ni apa la yg diorang buat .

Anyway , Hantar syami kat rumah pastu aku , Nazhif , Syahir ngn Ayu pegi makan kat Kota Damansara .
Makan dinner apa entah . tak sedap mana pun masakan dia . HAHA
Lepas makan hantar Ayu balik rumah then syahir tetiba nak clubbing lak .
So we continue the party dekat Laundry bar Damansara untill 1 o'clock in the morning .
Sampai rumah around 230 kot tak silap ?

Lastly , TIDOR .

TOODLEESS :)

Where The Hell Did Spring Went ?

Wondering wondering wondering and wondering...

What if ? Oh god wht if ??

Its easy to make the other looks bad.
Seriously it is so easy until you're confused of how it happen in the first place .

You oh you , every single thing you do makes me proud of you.
When you do the the things you do . They're so you .
Here im trying to burn the thoughts of the things that you once promised .
From there I have assume it wrong all along.

SHIT

My heart is now breaking out in words that wouldn't do shit to you .

I once said , 'no , because i simply cant live without you'
I once said , 'no , i dont want anybody else'
And I once said , 'Yes , you're my soul mate'
So hello best friend I wanna be next to you as we speak .
For my head, for my heart and for whats true that can only harm me.


But no , none of its true because i never knew you .

Rempit Hot

Muhammad Syafiq AKA Apit .

Not many of you guys knows this but he's my lil brother .
But the thing is , we dont share the same house . haha
Macam mana kitorang related tu takyah tau la kan Cik Pura ?
HAHA

Apit ni rumah berdekatan je .
so macam malam weekends kitorang memang hang out lah .
Best gak lepak ngn Apit ni .
Kalau borak pasal pompan tuh kerje kitorang memaki kaum korang je oh .
Eh jangan marah lak . HAHA

Apit time aku susah dia memang tolong aku .
Tapi kekadang tu time mintak tolong tu boleh bantai buat muka lak .
Sepak gak kang . HAHA

And dia ni kalau terserempak kat skolah mesti jerit 'MOK!'
Tade benda lain lah dia nak cakap .
Then soalan yang berikutnya .

-Pegi mana mok?
-Kau ponteng ke?
-Passing awek sorang mok ?

Last but not least .

-Teman aku berak mok ?

HAHAHA
Okay yang buang air tu bukan everytime la tapi boleh kata SELALU gak ah . HAHA

Anyway , tetiba nak tulis pasal kau mok .
So daripada tulis pasal teman teman baru yang tak berapa aku kenal .
Baik tulis pasal yang dah lama kenal and da tau apa yang bakal keluar kat mulut die en mok ?
HAHAHAA

Oh yeah lupa la pulak .
Kalau kat luar . macam tgh isap rokok mesti dia cakap bnda sama ni .

Nak terberak doh . Aduhh , sakit perut sial .

HAHA tu everynight memang ada la en . tak penah miss .HAHAHA

Anyway sayang kau lil bro .
Yesterday was a horrible day but i'll be ok now that you're here.
Get what i mean mok ?
HAHA

LATER :)

Jug Jug Jug

See what I want so much, should never hurt this bad
Never did this before,
We've been generally warned, thats what the surgeon says
God talk to me now this is an emergency
And I was to proud to admit that it was hurtin me
I'd never do that to you at least purposely
We breakin up again we makin up again
but we don't have that sane love no more

Have you ever felt like you wanted to kill her
and you mixed them emotions with tequilla
and you mixed that with a little bad advice
on one of them was a bad nights
in the end, you have a bad fight
and you talkin bout her family her aunts and shit
and she sayin muhfucka yo mama's a bitch
you know domestic drama and shit

Bittersweet, you're gonna be the death of me
I don't want you, but I need you,
I love you and I hate you at the very same time

Distracted By Your Silly Statement

2nd March 2010.

Nothing intresting .
Bangun pagi mama kejut . mandi . makan . pegi skolah .
Ohh lupa nak mention , motor yg tunggu sekian lama tu da dapat.
But my bro , alahai paham paham je la prangai OG tu .
Kedekut nak mampus . tape la bang . kau bwk je la motor tu ke kubur .
Anyway , back to the story . Arini masuk school agak lambat .
740 i think ? Oleh disebabkan Mirin ni friendly dan peramah(kata kata wanie)
Pengawas pun kamcing la ngn Mirin . Pengawas bagi aku free-pass .
Ceh , mcm skola tu nak pegi tgok concert jeee .

First period was English . Masuk class terus dia ditegur oleh Puan Ezlyn .
'Amirin! You finally found your way to the class . Congratulation!' grrr
Yeah Teacher , i told you im gonna cut the crap this year and I will :)

After English was Pendidikan Jasmani .
Mr Renga cakap kena pegi buat Eye test .
But all of us pegi curi curi main bolaaa .
My team was me , Acab , Aizat , Faiz and Syahmir .
Lawan the other team Vinoth , Mamba , Prem , Navien and Muresh .
Rooban nak main tapi tak boleh sebab da cukup orang . alahai kesian rooban :P
Mamba score dua goal bhai . Of all the people .
We lost the match 2-0 but it was a good game you can say :)

After the bell rang all of us rush back to chemistry .
Wouldn't want to keep Puan Chaeng Waiting .
Mengamuk Brock Lesnar tu satu class susah karang . haha .
Masuk masuk kena marah sebab kitorang tak dapat her homework .
How the hell is that our fault ??

Anyway 20 minutes of chemistry and we were called to the Bilik Tayangan .
We were given a talk about Career In Science .
Me And Vinoth were both facinated by the Quantity Surveying Course .
Besides , if you're looking for that dollar sign . This is the career u should pursue :P
Anyway kami masih muda la to be thinking about all this.
All i know , that i want to do my A-Level after my spm and study oversea :)
Well , kalau jadi move to New Zealand i'll just continue my studies there .
Entahh lah . We'll see how things works out nnti .

Lepas the speech , rehat .
Rehat mcm biasa . Lepas rehat was Agama Islam .
Ustazah tak datang so merantau la kami satu sekolah tu .
Ooh btw , got my Sijil Pmr Already . Idk why im excited bout it but it looks cool :P
Blah blah blah , sekolah habis . Lepak kat kantin ngn navien jap main guitar .
Balik ngn Rooban and Dharman naik cab .
Smpai rumah online sekejap , mandi then bersiap siap .
Igt nak pegi tusyen da . Then , KEMALASAN datang .
Call Raja ajak pegi makan kat Penang Express while Ponteng class Addmaths .
Raja hantar pegi tusyen went for Bio class and duduk sebelah Aloy .

Balik abang pick me up dgn Motor baru dia ( poyo lebih )
Singgah Zaafar beli WL thenn balik .
Then tido sampai kul 1040 . then bangun makan . Smoke jap .
Then online tulis blog .

Oh God Finally , Toodles !